really.
i jux cant stand it anymore.
i cant stand it ANYMORE.
i feel lyke dying
i wan to die and end all my sorrow.

everyones studying.
if i dun study it makes me feel so odd
i have to study to be wif them
if i dun i will be cast off by them.
i jux cant stand the fact tt i m not gd in studies yet not making any moves to make them better.


i m breaking down into pieces and you nv noe.
i m dying and you dun care.
i m dead inside yet no one noes.
i m not ok in everyway.
but do you ever notice?
do you ever care?
do you?
all you care is to do well.
all you care is do well.
to do well.

i jux wan to end my life.
i m feeling stress
a lot of them.
ending my life will end my pitiful and pathetic life.
ending my life will end all my sorrow.
it will be great.
it will be.....
soon.

MUGGING MONTH!!!
ok..i noe its a bit late to say this kind of things..
BUT.its not over yet.
have to chiong all the way.
cant go online.
cant go out.
cant joke around.
cant play.
cant go shopping.
cant talk on phone.
everyones so serious.
everyone is so competitive.
no offence tho.
cause i jux cant stand it anymore.
i m jux so stressed.
everyday i go home.
i have to sit in front of my table and study study study.
i dun like it at all.
i think i m bursting.
think i m going to die soon.


ok fine.i m stressed.
but i dun care anymore.
jux have to endure a few days more.
and i will be able to do EVERYTHING.!
i miss shopping and doing those stuffs wif my darlinks.


i miss it totally.

realised tt i haven blogged in a few days.
nth really much happen..


SUNDAY.
wen out wif family to eat.parents didnt wan to buy me ice cream.
screw them!

MONDAY.
wen to skl..den wen jaime house do art.
wen go home tt time.
didnt want to wait for bus.
so jux walked all the way home.
den halfway near my hoouse.
saw my parents and mei.
decided to walk home together.
den at the road junction saw my elder sis
such a qiao he.
wen mei mei saw her.she was so excited tt she ran all the way to my elder sis
wen home as a family.but didnt feel lyke i m in one.
den piano
got scolding from teacher.
say wad i nv practice enuf and blah shits.
didnt bother much.jux nod my head yes yes yes.



TUESDAY.
nth unusual happened.
wen to bubbletea shop buy drinks.den wen home wif zi yun
did maths.and slept.lols
parents not at home wen i reached my house.ate my favourite instant noodle.lols


WEDNESDAY.
todae was fairly normal.nth happened...
zz
i m jux so damn bored.
parens not at home today!!! AGAIN.
for the time being larhs.
going to eat my lunch now.
shall end here.

tralalas.
todae was fun.

actually its ok larhs.
jux wen to library.
do homework.
but cannot find place.so wen to mos burger.
it was cold.
i didnt noe how to do ALMOST every maths question.
lols.
was too cold.thus wen home.
blahs.


den chatted om phone.
was kinda bored.
wen to slp.
mum have to wake me up three times again.
was very hot.
stuffy.


den wanted to do maths.
but daddy wen to slp; thus didnt do anything
weeees~
jux hope he will slp until late at night
den todae no nid do maths
lalalas.


i have nth else more to say lerh.
hahas.

WOOTS.
came bac home at around nearly 5
wen out wif zi yun in search of pencilbox.
lols.
but to no avail sia.



the first part of skl is ok larhs.
den art tt time.
it was a total disaster sia
first we nid to do wadever glue thing.
for the art 3d thing
den nid flour marh
den we lucky got go buy.same brand somemore.lols
hong hui and kelvin and zhi wei were lyke put their hands inside the packet and den splash? all the flour onto me.
hong hui wen to smear the flour on me.
den i do the same thing bac.
so funny sia.
cause he tot i wun do tt marhs
so he was kinda shocked.
lols
kelvin wen to pour flour all over my head.
kns.

after tt my hands all wif glue marhs.
so i wanted to xian hai kelvin.
didnt tell him my hand got glue
but duno he saw or not.
i told him tt i wan to shake hand wif him
den he jux shook it
lols.
den his hands all wif glue
hulalalas.

den zhi wei.
-.-
he go smear GLUE onto my face
wtf.
5 TIMES somemore.
den he smear aso at my frindge tt part.
kns
i have to go in and out of the toilet.
lols.
jux to clean my face sia


after a while
i got fed up wif zhi wei smearing glue onto me
i chased after him
den we ran the whole of 3rd floor.
lols.everyone in their classes were lyke looking at us wen we ran past.
hahas.

zhi wei ran fast larhs.
den cannot catch up wif him
so i began to walk.
den got one malay guy who is sitting outside the classroom said
GURL.RUN FASTER.CATCH HIM~.
zz
lame larh
i jux walked all the way bac.
and wash my face again


after skl wen to plaza sing at first
dun have the pencil box she lyke.
so we wen to orchard.
walked here walked ther.
cant find heeren.
lols.
den we go find directory.
my handphone was lyke
VIBRATE
lols.
checked.tot was yu hui.
but saw was nickie.
lols
kinda shocked.


den called yu hui.
asked her wher it was
den walked ther.
siian
such a long road sia
we walked till our legs are shocking pain sia
den cannot find wad she liked aso
wen paragon
aso dun have
cant even find the shop
lols.

den we wen to taka
go walk walk
wen to buy food
i brought brownies and doughnut
its so nice~!
den eat eat wen home
blahs
leg damn pain.
didnt wan to walk home
wan to crawl home sia
so pain.

weee~
looking forward to my burthday
i m so damn excited!~

todae was..
ok larhs
came to skl at 7?
den the same old thing.
blahs
wen for classes and den recess.
i was lyke kinda in a mood
cause my chinses wasnt gd.
it was vey bad instead.
my parents will lyke.
kill me larhs
they will say
TAIWANESE STILL CAN GET THIS KIND OF MARKS
den they will throw me out of the house
zz
and den i will be wandering off in the streets and dying of hunger
lols

den blah.
lit tt time cried
over my chinese marks.
den they all comfort me
thankew guys.



cme tt time i was kinda pissed
so wen yu hui talked to me i was lyke
WAD LAH.
sorrie yu hui.
i didnt mean it.
jux worrying about my chinese.
den me and zi yun walked to the bubble tea shop
buy lerhs wait bus
den come home lorhs
my daddy was in a bad mood i think.
lyke i giv a shit to him
he ask me y i come so late
i jux say
i walk home talk wif frens cannot arh
den he got nth to say


soon after tt they wen out to eat
i say dun wan go wif them
i wan stay at home eat bread.
lols.


siian
i m going to study lerhs.

woots
bac
den after oral wen down
asked xin hui to accompany me to walk walk.
cause my geog paper is wif my book.which is in hong hui's bag.
-.-
so have to wait unitl his oral finish lorhs.
den walked to gallery ther
chit chat
about 15 mins barhs
den wen bac.thinking tt zi yun shud be ther lerhs
den go bac saw uni diyu all ther.
den i asked them wher is zi yun
den she say
ORHS.DEY ALL IN CANTEEN SEARCHING FOR U
lols.
i m lyke ?!
faster run ther.
lols.
den saw them
they scolded me for letting them wait.
paiseh guys
den waited for hong hui.
he came down den i faster rush and do my geog
nid to hand up by tt day.
thanks yu hui for helping me


wen to central wif yu hui.
den pei her buy pens.and blah
den her mum come fetch her
she treat me bubble tea
weeees~


den blah lorhs.came home and the same old thing
i wish i wouldnt have to go home everyday and do maths.

zz
i m so bored





todae was chinses oral.
at least todae i wasnt the last one
i was the 4 th one sia.
den the teacher is from china
den started talking to her in my taiwanese voice.lols
she called me to read the bracket-ed part
den read lerh she said.good.
LOLS.
den finish lerh i wen down to study area.do my things and blah
continue tomoro
i m going to slp

HU LALALA.
4 days nv post lerh.
pai seh
this few days kee doing portfolio and stuffs.nv post.
lols


this few days is jux like the same?
in skl play play play
todae englsh oral.and chinese test

chinese test was kinda diff.cause i dunno alot of words
i got study lerh.but jux cant get it inside my damn brain.
den almost fell asleep wen i was doing half way.forced myself not to do that.den finally finished without slping

oral
omg larh.
oral i m lyke so damn nervous.
i was the last one to get tested lorhs
stupid larhs.


the teacher was miss huang.
den she say wad i have a pleasant voice.
LOLS.
blah blah blah
den wen home
slept until lyke 7 plus..
den my mum shouted at meto wake up
den i was still slping wen she came in again.lols.
den she threatened to throw my bear bear out if i dun wake up
*shoot up from the bed*
she cant bloody hell take my bear away.
tts so PRECIOUS to me.
lalalas.


den woke up.eat dinner
do MATHS.
fuck larh.
so difficult sia.do do do
den i m lyke omgomg.i wan slp.siian

den now use com daddy aso scream screa scream say wad he wan use.
KNS larh.he use so long everyday still wan use.later brain kana burst
woots.
paiseh.dun mind the cursing daddy part.
its jux ways to relieve my PRESSURE X)


den tomoro got chinses oral.
wondering if i would be the last again.
-.-
chinses shud be ok larh.
jux hope tt the pic is easy and blah.





next friday exam lerh.
everyday at home study study study.
i m so tired.
and i still cant stop thinking of him.
hahas.
nvm.
i dun care lerhs.now exam most important.
its seems lyke i m so hardworking now.
lols.


got to go and revise again.
buh byes~

curse some ass shit man.
i dun giv a damn anymore on those tags.
they suck wen they dun rite their name.



if its YOU who rote all those.
pls. u might as well rite ur name.
or YOU are making the situation worse.
get that?
yeah.and if its not u.
den forget about it.


fuck tt shit face who rote tt.

todae
was a fairly ok day
todae wen to skl early again.
cause do interview
pls lah.
so toot.
we laugh laugh laugh.den he stare stare stare.
zz


wen fer classes as usual
den after recess i tot my sketch book lost.
den wen to find it.
wen from 3rd floor to 4 th floor.den come bac again.
den found out tt its in my BAG.
chey.
i tot wad lost.den found out tt its in my bag
zz
den we drew on wood thingy
so nice larh
polar bear


wen fer co.
den is lyke so cold larh
change to AVA room.
4 aircons all on 18 degree.
SIAO.
so cold larh
go out of the room fer break dun wan come back
so cold sia



den wen home at around 6.30
den do maths
i so hardworking sia
zz
den now talking in msn.weee~

AHHH
WTF
y mux she ruin everything????
omgomgomg.
its not i dun lyke___
its jux tt.
yyyy????
ruin everything
zz
cant stand it

lets talk about skl todae
wen to skl damn early.
den walk walk play play.
den wen fer classes lorh
found out tt science nv do.
den faster ask yu shih lend me copy
lols
den do wad english oral.
dp cheng and me is lyke so awkward larh
duno wad to do.
den DING.bell ring
YAY.


science class wen to classroom.
den play eat sweet


den recess
eat lorhs den blah
crappy things


chinese was almost sleeping larh.nth to do.
den wen fer lit.cant find my lit storybook.
SHIT.
dunno wher lerhs
have to buy new one.
zz
i have NO MONEY man
i m broke.
SERIOUSLY.


den science casue NCC got shooting thing.so yu shih came and sit wif me
den wen talk about him going bac to taiwan to study or work.
blah
den hong hui ask fer sweets again.
he bought new shoes tho.
i ask him how much he tell me 80 plus.converse
GOT SO EX meh?
zz

den maths.crap.teacher we listen.so GUAI sia


CME lesson.lols.almost fell asleep sia
den finish we nout of skl to buy bubble tea.

den CO.
LOLS.
SO FUN.TODAE TEACHER NEVER COME.
SO WE PLAY PLAY PLAY.
LOLS



byes
go cycle lerh

LALALALa
yesterdae wen to blood donation centre.
lols

my baby sis was lyke crying and crying
den my mother is inside dontaing
wtf
den everybody was lyke looking at me larh
sis cry non stop.
FINALLY my mum come out
den my mei was lyke
wahhhh
finally c my mum


den wen to taka
bought 2 t shirts
LOLS


bought ice cream
brownies
doughnuts
lols
all my FAVOURITES!!!


wen home
eat do maths
den talk on phone
wuahahas

thats my so called INTERESTING day
x))

FUCK LARH
IGNORE THE DAMN TAGBOARD PLS.
WAD THE FUCK LARH
WAN RITE ASO RITE IS NAME RITE?
dumb ass shit man

kaos
dun dare rite ur name
fuck up ass.



guys.jux ignore the damn thing

WOOOO~todae rock man
i love todae
at least its somehting interesting larhs.
lols


todae in the morning wen to popular to meet wif my darlings.wen to ntuc
wanted to buy.but den cause the money not 10.cause got voucher.so we didnt buy
we wen to sit 231 to near skl.wen to buy bubbletea.and crackers
den walk to skl.
wen to the field ther take pics.
lols
den wen to class.
wen to class saw yu ting they all buy pizza seh.
den we onli got crackers.
lols
but they got share wif us luhh
so nice of them


den in class we eat plae take pics and sms.
lols
den were all fooling around seh
teacher aso dun care
she wrinting something for us .
something lyke referance.


finally teacher come bac.den she told us to keep everything.time for real work.so we veri guai lor.kept everything.lols.
rite finish the situational thing den times up lerh.
me yu hui and yunni wen to j8.zi yun lahr.cannot go.her mum dun let her go.
-.-
if she go den its lyke perfect!~



wen to take neos
den walk walk
lols.
we took damn loads man
it rocks!~

den come bac home.fell asleep immediately.
siian
woke up do maths
den now msn-ing.scanning and blogging
lols
siian


I LOVE THE NEOS WE TOOK~!
XD

i dun understand y my best darlings r throwing tantrums ad me
i dun noe y.


she sae about her fren sae larh.
i dun care.
its jux tt y do they have to be so protective
they dun tell me things
tt i wan/shud noe.

y?
i trust her
i didnt sae i dun
i jux dun lyke the feeling tt she dun tell me things.
and tt kind of feelings makes her feel tt i dun trust her.
i trust her so much.



IF U R READING THIS.
I JUX WAN TO TELL U TT I TRUST U.
EVEN IF U DUN TRUST ME



I TRUST YOU

argh
i m in serius nid of going out of my HOUSE.
i have been rotting in my house since the past 4 days.
LOLS


todae i m finally goin out of my hosue fer half a day
weee~

siian
nth to do
i m riting testis to my darling.

lalala
i m back again?
hahas


todae i did maths from lyke 10.30 till 2?
lols
i was lyke day dreaming sms-ing and doing work at the same time
XD
waste time larh
dunno how to do den lie on bed think.
finally 2 plus finish den wen use com~
FINALLY.
i reallie suck in maths -.-


use com.
bathe.
wash my shoes
den wen watch movie.
the sleepover.
its a ok movie larh.
quite nice.


watch finish wen out to library post mail and odid photocopying
bac home jux now
and tts the end of the most boring dae u have ever seen~
lols
watching tv again later.
i m addicted to it =))
weee~

and i jux fought wif my fren
who is in TAIWAN?!
and the next time i m going to c her is lyke december?
wtf.
and she is lyke so stubborn man
blah blah

craps.
i dun care

i m feeling damn pissed off rite now.


i was lyke rotting inside my room apart from the time
wen i wen to talk oh the phone wif darling zi yun.
was writing letter to my taiwan fren.thinking of wad nonsense to rite.
finally finished the letter.damn tired?
den came to use the com.checked msn
and looked wad i found?!
fuck shit.
i dun wan to sae anymore.
zz
it dampens my mood.
dumb ass
i dun giv a fuck shit anymore.

and now jux one stupid reason and i m suppose to let him off
forget about it.
i m going to RELAX.
CALM DOWN GURL
i m sad.
veri.


ITS MY OWN WORLD I M LIVING IN.

lala
i m in a blogging mood.
lols

nth much to blog too?
jux found out tt almost everybody's linkies r lyke according to alphabetical order?
and i m the onli one who is not.
hahas
so now i have to lyke change around the thing.
head spinning from looking at those words.

=))
nth much
go do arranging now.

WTF?

wilson.
ur fren is lyke so damn porn man.
-.-
stupid.



diaox.
i m feeling sucky.
i dun noe how to do my maths.
argh
and i got scolded?!
-.-
i mux bucked up lerhs
zz

oh ya.i found out tt my science is the best
yays
i tot my history was.
`LOL.
aniwae.
enuf of crapping
i hereby wish my sista

HAPPY BURTHDAE.
SHES AN ADULT FROM NOW?
shes 18 already.
so fast.
haiis
i duno wad to giv her.
she seems to lyke nth.
except her goth punk cosplay clothes
and i no money to buy her
ahhhh
nvm
forget about it.


buh byes
gtg out eat dinner to celebrate her burthdae

wuahahas
todae is my elder sista's burthdae.
yesterdae at 12 plus in the night.
ppl smsed her to wish her seh.
her frens r so gd?
wait until 12 plus den sms her.
hahas

den todae wake up got calls from her frens to wish her happi burthdae.
`LOL.

5 days later will be my baby sista's 2nd burthdae
...
she is onli 2 years old and mummy's frens r all erh.
wishing her.giving her those kind of gold bracelets?
arghh.


and my burthdae is lyke still....
FAR
FAR
FAR
AWAY.

siian.
nowi have to go do MATHS.
irritating.
buh byes!~

AGH.
wad the fuck.
i finally come to my blog.changed my skin as i m irritated to PINK.
changed my skin and den all the pics gone.
zz
nvm
i dun giv a damn animore.



yesterdae was teachers dae
wento skl wearing PE.which definitely sucks fer me
-.-
i hate wearing the shirt.


anwiae.
fer aces dae.
den pass the ball up and down.blah blah.
den sat bac and enjoy the performance?
its kinda boring.
zz
except fer the part wen my darling was singing in the choir
`LOL.
i was lyke a mad person screaming my head off.
den she gave me the look r u crazy?
hahax


den wen bac to my beloved primary skl.
wen i reach ther i was lyke so damn shock to c so many ppl already ther.
and jean came in hugging everyone.
she is so damn hyper man.
den we wen to the canteen.
qi jin bought a teachers dae cake fer mrs choo
den we set it up?
put candles and everything.
den mrs choo came.
she is veri HAPPY to c us all ther.
ther were 34 of us.
so united seh.

den we cut cake.eat cake
den mrs choo got wadever meeting to go
so left us alone
den we started PARTYING!~
we were lyke raving mad
i started taking pics of my darling frens
den everyone shouted.
-.-
zz
and tt continues fer lyke 15 mins.

den tai sheng send shirlynn a porn video
everyone crowded around to watch.
den within 3 mins.everyone was EEEE.GROSS.
i watched finish the whole 7 min show.
`LOL.
its gross.but i jux cant help to see more.
but note.
i m not some bian tai or wadever
i m jux CURIOUS
=))

den wen wif kah jie and joe yong to central mac.
started talking crap again
den wen home at 4 plus


slept until 7 plus.
>.< i m tired
den still hav to do maths
do ler until 10 sharp
wen to watch tv
and chat at the same time.
parents wen out to walk walk
so can use the phone watch tv and the com!!
tv finishes ad 11
continued to chat in msn until 12 plus?
den wen to slp.


u will be reading?
pls.
next time dun sae ghost animore.
i CANT slp
reallie.
argh.


i miss my p6 class.
i love them loads!
MUACKIES.XD